ready to pull my hair out

Okay, somthing has GOT to be wrong with me.

I slept for not 8, not 9, but 13 hours today. I didn't even do anything strenuous yesterday! I slept for 9 hours this morning, literally sat around and did nothing for a couple hours, and then went back to bed for 4 hours. Got up, and felt exhausted-- like I had not slept at all. I managed to drag myself to the library, down a latte with 3 shots of expresso in it and was still so tired that I literally was punching each function on my finance homework probably 10 times because I would mess up and press the buttons in the wrong order or put the wrong value in the wrong place.
Factor in some seemingly random joint soreness, a mysterious weight gain, dramatic mood swings and it seems like something is just not quite right. The results of my thyroid test come back soon, so if something is wrong I should find out about it, thankfully.

Otherwise...I'm doing pretty poorly in school (still!) I hate networks. Hate hate hate it. I got my second D on an exam in that class...the future does not look good. I just don't get them! The professor acts like we are all computer geeks and should obviously already know the stuff that he is teaching us when really, it's about half the class that has had some prior networking experience and the other half is totally new to the subject. I just hope I can get out of there with a C.

beat

I'm totally exhausted. I have no idea why-- I have been getting decent amounts of sleep lately (except when I've been at home this week and everyone wakes me up) but it seems like no matter how much sleep I get I'm still extremely tired. The boyfriend has been trying to make me sleep when I go over to his place because he always comments on how tired I look. (Though, I get that all the time, really. I think it has to do with having light skin so you have these permanent dark shadows under your eyes...) I can't even focus on my homework. I really wanted to hit the gym this week too, but due to the fact that I've been so fatigued and having some soreness in my joints I have not been able to. This is all sounding suspiciously like my thyroid gland might be out of whack again. At least if it is I'll find out about it soon, since I had my annual blood test this past week. I also have a cyst in my throat that I had an ultrasound done on this past week. I've known about it for a while-- I can feel it and I get a really uncomfortable feeling when anything touches my throat (so no scarves or turtlenecks for me)-- and I told my mom about it when the doctor found it, but she apparently was not paying attention because she seriously chewed me out on the phone when I told her I had it checked out and she assumed I neglected to tell her. Ah, mom. Her attention is spread so thin between taking care of all her kids and her parents and transporting everyone everywhere that she doesn't really absorb much information anymore.

I decided to try cooking something last night and I made a white bean chicken chili, which is my favorite kind of chili. It turned out really well, which made me happy:) Also, I bought organic tomatoes instead of just the usual tomatoes I buy, and they definitely taste better.

I really want to go shopping and get some new clothes, but I'm so tired that I don't even feel like going. I just want to sleep...